25.8.17

All my insecurities

Hello.
I know I don't post regularly anymore but I'm struggling a little with some life things.
I'm currently in my P-j's, have been since about 6 pm but haven't slept since six am.
Seeing as I'm feeling like crap I thought I'd tell you all the things I have that make me feel like crap.

I'm insecure about making new friends, starting a conversation, asking for the bill or asking for help when I know I need help.
I'm insecure about smiling because I had to wear braces when I was little and I didn't keep them in as long as I was supposed to.

I'm insecure about my legs because I walk with a limp since day 1 and avoid doing outdoor exercise because I feel like everyone can see me limping.
I'm insecure about going to busy beaches because that means showing a bunch of strangers my body in a bikini.

I'm insecure about my love life because I'm scared of both finding someone that doesn't want anything serious and also finding someone that's too seriously into me.

I'm scared of not being good enough, let it be for work, relationships, or anything really.

I'm scared of my landlord, no reason, it's just someone that collects payment, but I'm scared of this person either way.

I'm scared of walking home at night.

People walking too close to me.

Strangers touching me.

Strangers speaking to me when I'm walking home at night.

I'm scared of not doing anything in my life, even though I'm incredibly lazy.

Cockroaches terrify me.